illusionary world part II

   This is a world that has ended. Nothing is born, nothing dies. Not even passing time exist. If I were search for somewhere to be born, I would not choose this world. In this world such as it is, there is someone. I wonder if she can see me?

  I have not been born yet to this world. The girl living in a world that has ended. A girl living in this empty and still world. For some reason, this girl interest me. For what reason? I can't be sure of myself either.

  The girl's life is so lonely. No one else exist in her life. That is only natural though because nothing is born here neither nothing here dies. That is the kind of world this is.

Demons

   Before Mai moved to the city, she used to stay with her mother who was hospitalised. Mai love her mother very much. In a gloomy Sunday evening, her mother was about to leave to a faraway place that can only be travelled by death. Mai's mother had pass away. Mai started to cry and prayed for her mother to be alive while holding her's mother hand tightly.

   Miraculously, her mother was brought back to life on the next day. The doctor and nurses were shocked. The explanation of this stems from a magical power that Mai has within herself. When she cries, her tears carry incredible healing powers which even have the power to bring things back from the dead. 

   The media pick up on this, but Mai starts to get bullied and was called a freak. Eventually, Mai and her mother move to Kanon's city. 

   In Kanon's city, Mai met Yuichi during summer break and the two hung out together a lot for the rest of the summer, especially in a nearby barley field. When the summer break is coming to a close and Yuichi has to go back to his parent's home as he is here staying in his auntie's house for the summer break. Mai becomes very distraught due to losing a very close friend only just after meeting with him. Mai makes up the story that demons have started attacking the field of barley and that she needs Yuichi help to fight them off. Yuichi tells her that he is sorry but he has no choice but to go back to his home. Mai tells him that she will wait for his return some day.

   Seven years had passed, Yuichi had come back to Kanon's city to attend high school. He attended the same high school as Mai but the both of them did not know nor recognise each other. 

   Yuichi caught Mai one day swinging her sword in school at one breezy and cold night. Yuichi asked Mai what was she doing and Mai replied, "killing demons." And that was when Yuichi assist Mai on her mission.

   After a few months, Yuichi believes he and Mai managed to destroy them all, but Yuichi is later confronted by another demon. He ultimately sees that it is not a demon, but rather a part of Mai's own power that shows him what happened before and during the time he met with Mai. The story of demons attacking is true but in a misinterpreted way.

   Due to Mai's incredible power to heal things, an adverse effect that she created from this power were the "demons". The reason that she was getting hurt after destroying them is because she was killing off parts of her own self. After Yuichi tries to tell her that it is all over now, Mai blames herself for endangering her own friends, and thus stabs herself with the sword and is about to die. Just then, a fragment of Mai's own power appears before Yuichi in the form of a young version of Mai. Yuichi reassures her that he will not leave Mai again. Mai's own power saves her and closes the wound she had just inflicted which saves Mai's life. Mai's power believes that now she will be able to accept this power that she has. Later on, she was taken to the hospital and she has to stay out of school until the spring. 

illusionary world

   This is the world that has ended. A world that has no one else. In this room is a small table and chair. A wasteland beckons beyond the window outside. The house is old; I cannot say for certain when it was built. I have been living here all alone. For how long? I do not know myself.

   Sometimes I venture out, picking up things I need. There is not anyone else outside. Under the dim sunlight, there are so many small lights flying all around. I picked up pieces of wood, nails and many other things to create a friend. But, would it make my creation happy to be born in a world like this? Would it befriend me after letting it walk on the grounds of this world?

   While such a query echoed inside my heart. I am not certain what I should do or not. I do know that, I do not want to be alone anymore. I want a friend.

Racism and Discrimination

  Getting discriminated for who you are is no pretty walk in the park. There are quite a number people who are affected by racism. How would you feel if that was you? Getting discriminated against every day for you being you? Racism is like getting accused of a crime, it is unfair especially when you have done nothing wrong. 

  Discriminators have caused people to die. They have caused death because they can't take such racism comments. Just because of their skin colour, it can cause such havoc.

  It is simply barbaric for people to pull of stunts like this and cause death, to do a stunt like this and think it's alright. It's not and it never will be.

  Discriminators caused pain, death and war among races. It is absurd. What happened to world peace? 

  Racism happens daily and affects so many people. How can you live with yourself for causing someone so much trouble? How can you live a normal life and think everything's fine? Racism is causing death and too much pain it must be stopped once and for all. After all as said by Gandhi, "Be the change in the world YOU want to see."

Prejudice on children

  Children can suffer from a climate of prejudice. Prejudice creates social and emotional tension and can lead to fear and anxiety and violence too. Prejudice can undermine the self-esteem and self-confidence of those being ridiculed and make them feel terrible, unaccepted and unworthy. When that happens, their school performance often drops or suffers. They may become depressed and socially withdrawn and childhood can become a much less happy time. 

  It is critical that a child is helped by dealing with diversity in a positive way. Prejudice is learned at a very young age from parents, other children and people and institutions outside of the family. By about 4 years of age, children are aware of differences among people, primarily in characteristics like appearance, language and names, but later they are aware of religious and cultural distinctions as well. To some extent, children begin to define and identify themselves through their understanding of these personal differences. This is normal. 

  As youngsters try to make sense of these individual distinctions, they may hear and accept simplified stereotypes about others. When that happens, they not only develop distorted views of the youngsters and adults they encounter in daily life, but they may start to deny and overlook the common, universal human elements and traits that would bring people together and live in harmony. As a result, intolerance may develop where there should be friendship.

Music

   Music, one of the most beautiful or probably, the only beauty way to express feelings. Sometimes, words too. Magnificent sounds join into one creating beautiful sound to the ears. Music can even touch the heart of people and maybe animals too.

  Although it can be beautiful, some of it isn't. Music can express anger, hatred, sadness, and the ill feelings of human too. It is like a remote control which is able to control our emotions. How it works, is mysterious yet wonderfully amazing.

  Some genre music can people make people dazzle to it. The beat, the rhythm and the sound of the music is like a guideway for our actions. Dazzling to the enchanting waltz, feeling the vibe the music gives you, is just amazing. Feeling the music and following the vibe of it makes someone a different person. Not completely different but just, different. It is unexplainable but music changes you for that period of time.

  Music works differently depending on the genre of it and how we feel it. It can be beautiful but sometimes destructive. Destructive as in brings down a person's emotion. To me, music is one of the essential of living and life.

Loneliness

   Loneliness, it has to be one of the worst feelings I swear. Different people feel loneliness differently. Some feel lonely when they have nothing to do, some feel lonely when they do not have someone by their side and well, some feel lonely every time. I guess, you can't really give a definition to the word 'loneliness' because different people have different perspectives on it.

  I wonder, why do we have to feel this way? Why can't we control this terrible and sickening feeling? Is like, we're fine for a period of time and suddenly, the loneliness sneaks into us and mess us up big time. We humans have so many things to do, accomplish or aim in life yet, the feeling of loneliness can come to us anytime and we just can't fully control it. Is like a demon.

  Cheerful people, motivated people, happy people and positive people, do they feel this way too? They always have a smile on their face but is it a way to mask their loneliness? Even if is, I'm amazed at the fact that they are doing a wonderful job doing so. Maybe they have really found inner peace and abandon negative feelings such as loneliness.

   I have so many questions, wandering around my mind, waiting to be answered and it keeps coming when I'm alone. I despite such feeling. I want to be truly happily occupied because is one of the way I can keep the ill feeling away for a period of time. It'll be nice if there was a way to completely abandon it though. Not just a remedy but, a permanent cure for it.